Depressing post (2)

All these times i wonder, have i put in much effort at all in my studies? honestly, i would say yes, i did... All this while i have been getting an L1R5 of 23 or 24, and it has been like this since last year already, so i really hope i could break this record for the prelims... I tried, and failed, i scored 24 yet again. I really improved alot ever since my mid years, in terms of overall marks, i think i improved ALOT, like more than 50, but my L1R5, it just remains there at 24.. WHY? I dreamt of going to a JC, be it any JC, but now i can no longer do so... Three months i guess i'll have to stay at home, get a job, or another choice is to enter MI for the first three months... what shud i do??