Today was depressing, just depressing... I dunno, I mean I studied soo hard for the Physics paper, and it turned out disasterous... I dunno, i think i'm goinna fail that paper real badly, BUT NO! i need physics... its only 43% of the paper, i've not done 57% of it, but i just felt like all hope is lost...

Right now, I fear retainment more than anything at the moment... I'm so sad that maths didnt go well, chem was not too bad but i still doubt my chances of passing, simply cause it was a tricky and tough paper.. the only reason why I said it was not too bad was cause its just better than mid years, thats all...

I banked in on physics, I need to pass TWO H2s to proceed up, so i banked in on maths and physics as compared to chem, and look what physics did to me...

I feel like there's no way I can move up, and although I will definitely TRY my upmost best for whats left of physics, and lit, and chem paper one, I must say these two weeks, I'll be living a life of doubts and mental as well as emotional turmoil... In fact, I think the wait for my promo results are WAY more stressful than the wait for my O Level results back then, I'm serious...

Haish, I got a blasting from my mum today, who told me that she didnt know what to say if I studied and failed... She wants me to transfer to a poly if I dont get promoted...

So the pain and anguish continues.....