it ends tonight

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

Yesterday was the last day I'll ever experience that thing labelled as 'familiar'

When I wake up tomorrow, everything will change, and when I say everything I mean everything...

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

I used to wake up at 6, and can dilly dally and leave house at 6.45 am and still reach school on time... But tomorrow, I've to wake up way earlier than that, and I have to leave home at 6.20 am perhaps?

My mode of transport is similar, bus MRT bus... but throughout the years I've been taking the train to Jurong East, this time its tO marina bay...

Tomorrow at 7.45 am I'll be in a totally new environment I've never been to before... No more cafe, no more sanctuary, no more window, no more Pioneer...

Tomorrow at 9 am and lunch, I'll no longer head to the school canteen with my friends, and I'll no longer walk to the Nasi Padang stall with Ummairah deciding what to buy... I'll no longer be able to play those fun games like the fingers game, the give me tempo ready go game, and concentration...

I'll no longer sit with my bestest classmates, eating, talking, chatting, waiting for the next lecture or tutorial... (Hafiz, Ummairah, Vincent, Dejin, Jun Ming, matthew, jonathan, wenfang, joaquina, joan, joon meng etc.)

in the afternoon, I'll no longer be with people I know.. it'll be awkward not having to wait for soccer fanatic Joshua and volleyball queen ummairah before heading home..

During my free time, I'll miss going to the sanctuary to play pool, game of life or even the cool battleship game with those familiar to me...ummairah...joshua...yinlin

when its time to go home, I'll no longer be going home with someone..

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me...

i'll miss either walking home with Ummairah OR taking the canal route with joshua...

On Thursday at 12.30 pm, I'll feel weird not rushing to the council room to take the keys and do sanctuary duty with Fauziah...

And on Fridays, I'll miss leaving school at 1 plus for Masjid Al-Khair...

I'll miss everything about Pioneer....

I used to joke about parting ways with you guys, but never did I imagine it would actually be true, and that I'll be leaving you guys...

This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried, I'd wipe away off of your tears When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years

But now... its all gone.. only memories are left... so will you let these memories stay with you, or will you let them fade away in silence?

The untold want by life and land ne'er granted,
Now voyager sail thou forth to seek and find.