O levels? What's that?

hello guys!! Old news, o levels over... despite it being already two weeks, i still cannot actually believe its over! one minute i had all my books in my room, in a messy state, with my cmind almost corrupted from all the knowledge making my mind saturated... now its all empty, my mind's free... its wierd though, but i'm learning to cope with it...

whats more distressing. I've already sealed my fate in the o levels... there's no more "Study hard" and all... now all thats left is the key i will receive in three months to open the lock that has been sealed almost three months somewhere in march next year... i can't say i am confident, some parts of my mind tell me i did pretty okay, but there's this part of me that keeps haunting me telling me and askin me time and again what if i dun do so well... normal human reaction i guess...

My brother has been tellin me he thinks i will get an 18, my father thinks i'll get 24.. so now i really hope that doesnt come true... haha... i want at least a 13, then i'll be satisfied.. okay even if i dun get 13, the very most i hope to achieve is 15.. nth more than that i hope... ahh i am paranoid! haha...

see, who says post o levels is all about enjoying and enjoying? Well, yes to a certain extent its true.. but not all, worrying is also another factor...

Well, just a few minutes ago too i just signed up for my three months course JC.. i got a 20 for L1R5 but my four bonus pts helped pull me up to a 16.. well, i chose Nanyang JC for my first choice.. haha my aggregates way too high to enter that JC, its aggregate is abt 12, but hmm, no harm in trying, so i'll just try my luck =)

My next choice JC went to pioneer... i know, my parents wanted me tto choose innova, but somehow i just couldnt help but feel that i would be a little lonely in innova, so i decided to choose pioneer instead of innova. I opted for the science course... haha hope i do get in there with my other friends =) Joshua, shirley, ummairah, make sure u guys get into Pioneer!!! Wah, even if i dont get pioneer, i hope i'll get innova... there's always the loneliness factor, but i think i'll be able to handle it... Then again, i do hope all of us end up in pioneer... there's always the possibility of us going to different schools, but i hope that wun happen... whats worst is if i end up in pioneer alone... NOO! haha paranoid again zul!!

Soorrry for this very wierd post of mine, soo many things going on in my mind i felt i needed to blog abt it... haha, see what the mind of zul has been up to these few days... that doesnt include prom, which i will blog about soon... haha thats all, cya guys!!